Fuck. Where now?

My phone didn’t tell me I had a call, just that I had a message. Dr. B2 called with the EEG results – they came back as appearing normal. She doesn’t know where to go now and wants me to talk to Dr. C again… but Dr. C never even ordered the EEG and pretty much gave up on figuring out what was going on.

So where do we go from here?

I mean, its possible it could still be a type of seizure, and that it just wasn’t picked up on the EEG… but how do we know? What do we do know? How do I convince doctors to keep taking this seriously when all the tests keep showing up with nothing?

Where do I go from here?

…Its the middle of a blizzard here, we’re expecting a few feet of snow. I’m supposed to have an appointment with my counselor, Jill, on Wednesday. Hopefully the roads will be clear and safe by then, because I’m going to need to talk to her about this as I try to hold myself together.

Why body, do you have to be so difficult?


I’ve been having a lot of “bad brain” days lately. There is a lot I want to share with all of you – about counseling and depression, about my bone health, about my brain, but I am struggling with words.

I will let you know, I have an EEG scheduled for this Thursday. I’m trying to to be too hopeful that this will actually reveal something. Especially something that might actually be manageable and controllable with medicine. Those are pretty shitty hopes to get dashed. But I still can’t help but be a bit excited that we might actually be getting somewhere – Dr. B2 (yes! I’m seeing her again, at her new practice!) seemed hopeful too.

I’ll share the results when I can.